Though the music is mostly instrumental, accompanying poetry / musing is meant as a form of parallel expression. These are memories, dreams, and half-dreams.

THE NEW TOKAMAK (full length)

0 ~ cusp of the mobius strip
here in these arms my restlessness dissolves
here in these arms i am thoroughly quieted

with a little less noise
with a little less static
i hear a familiar melody

here in your arms my guard is pulled away
here in your arms my fears are silenced

with a little less noise
with a little less static
i hear a familiar melody

gentle voices are singing to me
story of our tomorrow and our yesterday
a gentle angel is singing to me
i turn and it's you welcoming me home

i laugh as i feel for the edge
my first love is my last love
but it's a beautiful paradox
my last love is my first love

i walk another mile and you're there to greet me
i still see you waving goodbye in the distance
i walk another mile to find my way home
there already, somehow you've been patient

i laugh as i feel for either end
my first love is my last love
but it's a perfect symmetry
my last love is my first love

here in these arms my restlessness dissolves
here in these arms i am thoroughly quieted

with a little more hope
with a little more trust
i hear the sweetest melody

1 ~ thermite
there's this ice growing around me
these crystals within silence
this lattice of regrets
all choking me down

the air in my lungs is trying to cut away
the shards in my chest want to bury this soul
the pain in my lungs is taking me down
glass in my chest wants to find its way out

no more than a white light and i'm burning inside
no more than a moment and i'm cauterized
no more than an instinct - these scars are all gone
no more than a reflex and i'm suddenly whole

there's this glacier of unreason
these crystals within my lungs
this lattice of upsets
this cold weariness

the cuts in my lungs are trying to whisper
splinters in my chest want to bury my soul
the ice in my lungs is drowning me now
glass in my chest wants to chew its way out

no more than a white light and i'm burning inside
no more than a moment and i'm cauterized
no more than an instinct - these scars are all gone
no more than a reflex and i'm suddenly whole

2 ~ conductance test

3 ~ white flag
trusting my intuition's true compass
that has always served me so well
trust to steering by this constellation
i've heard no greater promises

raising this white flag above me
i surrender with or without you
this white flag - surrender with me
for burnt bridges with no fault

giving up this resentment
for burnt bridges with no fault
giving up this atonement
for shortcomings that weren't sin

without condition love yourself
in the ways i will learn to
unconditionally bare yourself
that i may dress your wounds

trade you a pound of compassion
for each ounce of ache your soul sheds
trade you details of origins
for each crease upon your brow

raising this white flag with me
let your true compass guide us
this white flag - surrender with me
trust in this lossless intuition

giving up this resentment
for burnt bridges with no fault
giving up this atonement
for shortcomings that weren't sin

navigate by this constellation
the north star bright in your chest
overturn these barbed defenses
keeping us bunkered and apart

4 ~ iff
if and only if you could see this equation for evolution
iff you could see the simple gift we're building one node at a time
if and only if you could see this version of myelination
iff you could see our cure we're threading one potential at a time

5 ~ sabot

6 ~ exile

7 ~ axonal deference

8 ~ remyelination

9 ~ gamma synchrony

10 ~ kudzu
hacking, this machete grows dull
pushing back the parasite
grappling and entangled here
it grows back a foot a day

like kudzu this mistrust grows
infesting my everything
the green monster swallows whole
the past we carefully built

occam's machete never sharp enough
my shoulders are no longer tireless
move to keep wielding this defense
while vines lash out, overtaking

can't hope to keep up with your daily growth
ensnared by this virus binding
my waist, my wrists and ankles
painting my life with jealousy green

doused in gasoline, swallow the flame
burn out the underbrush and decay
down the forest to deprive the vines
no vein left to feed the tide

shedding limbs to beat the shackles
keep the marrow from being corrupted

a new forest will again grow here

11 ~ allusions / 10,000 days


WORKAHOLICS AUTONOMOUS


DAISHO (full length)

1 ~ yin and phonic

2 ~ reverse i
should i fake to mourn the loss
the collapse of our interconnect
when your ways have lately eclipsed all reason
your whim has disregarded all my warm affect

pull me away from your circular path
will you continue with the slow spiral?
curling into the worst parts of

tomorrow won't be the start
of another concentric year
begin undoing what we've almost done

reversing those veins of contentment you've seeded within me
carrying to completion the dreams you tried to pry me from
with our season of slumber

play mechanic inside my head
reverse my damage, what i can

3 ~ antigravity
falling up into and behind the vaulted blue
a place high enough to gain some perspective
just a place away from others
breathe some air that's shared with no one

4 ~ capacitance
last night i watched over you as you slept, my angel
caressed your cheek
brushed the hair from your face
my touch deep and tender
still feeling that look in your eye
the look the exhale of a heart’s surrender

i called with a fervor to the skies to send an angel
to fill me with this piercing warmth that is your love
it’s a triple seven vibe
feels like souls' embrace

our hearts once beat in harmony
now in perfect synchronicity
two chambers of the same heart
two chambers of the same heart

wiped the tear from your face
that fell from my eye
last night i looked upon you and wept, my angel
there's no shame in tears of joy

5 ~ SCSI navel
// sublimeAttractor function from human.female.Siren
moveYourBody(double heat, double hydration){
if (rand()%2 == 1) stepToMoonside(); // half a chance?
if (rand()%1000000 == 1) seduceMeWithStrobedSmiles();
if (heat > POINT_OF_NO_RETURN) danceEvenCloser();
if (your_thought == my_thought) touchYourEyesToMyEyes();
if (hydration > heat){
heat*=1.1;
hydration-=.1;
moveYourBody(heat, hydration);
}
natural_intoxication++;
kissMeALittleLonger(natural_intoxication);
drinkTheRhythm();
}

6 ~ wakizashi - part I
// violin + viola centric

7 ~ tonal vision
// guitar and drum

8 ~ wakizashi - part II
// violin + viola centric

9 ~ katana
// guitar and drum

10 ~ daisho
// basis

11 ~ inner reservoir
// meditation and vox


TWIN ARCS (full length)

2 ~ sapphire

3 ~ silver strand
i want no separation from the circuitry
i want to do away with the primitive interfaces
i want to be the machine i’m using

i want my music to bloom inside your head
i want to spin melodies from my mind to yours
i want you to plug into me

4 ~ overclocked

5 ~ her eyes

6 ~ rusted
// selfHealer function
private rite RustCycle extends RiteOfCompassion () {
if ((human.hasDeepHeartWounds == true) &&
(human.hasDamagingRepressedEmotions == true)) {
for (pain = seeminglyInfinite; pain > bearable; pain --) {
while (human.emotionalPain > 0) {
human.shedInternalCorrosion();
human.drawOnTheLightWithin();
human.rise();
}
}
}
}

7 ~ rise
in my mind a blade traces my shape
whisper of steel upon skin
seeking out the dead limbs
carving off my burdens like so much deadwood
dead weight mildewed with disdain and anguish
new growth forcing its way to the surface

with onyx and silver i cut away
with a will like a blade
i carve myself anew
i rise and i carve myself anew

carving off my burdens like so much deadwood
dead weight mildewed with silence and mistrust
new strength forcing its way into my core
with a will like the rook

i cannot succumb to your winds of indifference
cannot rot by the touch of your blind look, narrow thought
with a will of stone and silver
i will, i am through you
solid, piercing
i carve myself anew
solid, piercing
stand against, cut through
with a will of stone and silver
i am, i will

with a will of stone and silver
i rise, i am, i will

8 ~ lotus carving
i read all our layers of anticipation
you feel all my years of awaiting this gratification

in the morning i check my back and read the scratches
strange hieroglyphics speak what happened here last night

9 ~ soul embrace

1 || 10 ~ two arcs
one for the sun, one for the moon
one dream within
one for yang, one for yin
a balance - unseen

one for the shell, one for the geist
one light within
one for the left, one for the right
the path between

two hearts, one love
are two fires, one light
two souls, one bond
two moons reflect two suns reflecting